Topic Tuesday: Self-Love
“To My Body” (By: Katie Adams)
I decided to write you a poem
So please listen closely
I wish to say some things to you
For once, its kind words only.
Now that you can hear me
I want to say I’m sorry,
For all the pain I once caused you
When I hated my own body.
Please don’t worry about those things I said
just forget it ever happened,
Forget all the names I ever called you
For a stomach I wanted flattened.
I know I was hard on you
But today I’m finally free,
I’m healing every day and finding
All the things I’ve never seen.
At one point I didn’t have confidence
Or a satisfaction guarantee,
I’d never looked at myself in the mirror
Without bullying my own body.
From crying in retail dressing rooms,
And going days without a lunch
I pretended like all this was okay
As I took every single punch.
A mind that would beat itself up,
Even at times when I needed a hug
But I couldn’t find kind words for myself
I felt my body wasn’t loved.
Today I’m free from all the hurt
I’ve recovered from all these memories,
Now I realize that loving yourself
can be your greatest accessory.
So to my body, I apologize
I’ve accepted your imperfections
I promise to stop being so negative towards
What I see in my reflection.
Since this is the only body I’ve got for the rest of my life
I promise I’ll stop wishing parts of it away;
No longer will I let my body go hungry,
or feel discomfort because of weight.
today I’ve chosen to finally be happy,
With what I see in the mirror
And I’ve chosen to appreciate my body
Without having to skip my dinner.
I desire to be a friend to my body
As I never wanted to be it’s enemy
So as I’ve healed I’ve thrown aside
Any sources that brought me jealousy.
Magazines of models and the clothes that fit too tight
I threw them all away,
The foods I feared, the hunger I felt
And numbers on the scale have been erased.
So if my body’s listening, I hope it knows it’s worth
Could not ever be defined from a size, a number
Or place on this earth.
If my body’s still listening, just remember to stay strong
And keep looking for a little confidence
In a world where it can feel wronged.
And if society’s standards shout at you, fight back with all your own
Remind yourself your body is valued
For more than skin and bones.
So I’d like to say thank you to my body,
for all it has fought for me,
every day it has stayed strong
and today, I’m finally free.
About the Author
Katie Adams is from Memphis, TN. She currently attends college at the University of Memphis where she studies Dietetics. She became a volunteer with Renewed this past year with the intentions to be an uplifting and positive light for body image and those who may have suffered or are suferring from an eating disorder. Katie wishes to be a registered dietician in the future and believes writing for the Renewed blog gives her the ability to reach out to those in need and show an understanding for those who deserve it the most.